Time has gone by and I’ve re-evaluated a lot. Through everything I’ve been feeling I managed to balance college, financially, my comfort zone, connecting with new people, good vibes and capoeira. Right now I can say I’m not 100% but I’m not down in the dumps like I was. In reality I’m actually pretty happy with whom I spend my time with, how I spend my time and with who I am. Of course I have a long way to go in life but for me to say all this especially at this age is grand. Why? Because most teens or people in their early 20’s struggle in certain troubles.

I finished my second year in college not so well because of the change in my concentration and because I honestly slacked a bit and that made me realize a lot. I have to step away from friends when the time to study comes around. I would go out a lot and didn’t know how to balance hanging out and my priorities. Took this year for me to realize what I want in life. How so? Well so much for me dreaming about being the greatest journalist I came to realize it’s not something I want to do in my life because it’s not what I thought. I enjoy writing on my free time and to my style, I don’t want to be controlled or pressured so that’s when I decided to do writing as a hobby instead. I’ve been struggling financially as usual but this time I decided to put that 110% in effort and got off my ass and went in search for jobs and applying nonstop. I used to say I would never work with food but since I’m in need of a job, I’ll take that chance and do what it takes to gain money to deal with my personal needs, family and college. Patience is a virtue.

I’m totally comfortable with my surroundings, meeting new people and being firm in my character. Sucks that the people I’m getting to know don’t live close by but that’s fine because there’s a time for everything. Falling back from negative energy and people who don’t appreciate the people who actually care for their well-being. I’ve been holding this in but I solemnly swear I am in love with Samuel. He’s done so much for me and has shared a lot with me more than I would’ve ever thought. He’s my best friend and my man. That right there is the appreciable combination anybody can ever ask for. My level of comfort around him is grand and he’s unique. I learn something new with him each time. Most people as for a partner who has the same interests in every aspect but what’s the fun in that? Sam and I have lots of similarities as well as lots of differences. Therefore I learn from him and vice versa. He’s open minded and is the guy I’ve been waiting for. He came unexpectedly, when I wasn’t looking for anybody and we clicked. He’s something else, for real.

I had my mushy moment so now I’ll just end with the love I have developed to capoeira. I train more now and bond way much more with the beloved capoeiristas by simply training, going out to the beach, to eat or activities in the academy. Due to practicing capoeira a lot more now whether it’s in the academy or at home, I have improved and my master as well has told me himself I’ve improved and that right there is a great feeling. I don’t have a name yet but I’m so close to receiving it, I know it. It takes a while because you have to earn it and the name they give you will literally become your name so it has to be something unique.