No, the title of this post doesn’t refer to Taylor Swift’s song “Blank Space”, it’s just a feeling I have inside me and that was the first thing that popped in my head. Now, I don’t want to be those bloggers who only seem to post depressing news or feelings all the time but hey, it’s my blog and I’m hoping you guy’s could maybe help me out a bit or simply share thoughts. Who knows if those feelings/thoughts are mutual, you know? Any who, I’ve been feeling down. Simply bummed out and worthless in life. I’ve been feeling like this for a while now but it seems like it just gets worse and worse. Now, I don’t have much people to vent to so I’m those types of people who vent on a piece of paper and/or here in my blog. I can’t quite wrap my head around how I feel exactly but I just think of one word, and that word is depression.

“What’s wrong with you Verónica?” “How can I help?” “You need Jesus.”

These are the three main things I get asked and told every time. No, it doesn’t bother me but I just come out with the same responses. “I’m fine.” I need to go to church.” Truth is, right now I’m trying to change for better. I think I stated that a billion times in my previous posts but I am currently in that process and obviously it isn’t easy. I found myself being too nice to people that don’t deserve it. Meeting new people is a must for me, especially since that’s one of my main problems, not having close friends. I’m going to be honest, when I see those posts of best friends, I tend to feel bad because those who I called my “best friends” demonstrated to me that they really aren’t my best friends. Something that bothers me, and don’t get me wrong I don’t want so much attention how it may seem, but it really doesn’t hurt to reach out once in a while asking how I am or to see me. I’m always the one that reaches out and I’m pretty sure a lot of people feel the way I do when it comes to that. At some point, people tend to give up and stop looking for people since they basically give out their love and sympathy yet don’t receive the mutual feeling after all that effort.

Right now I simply ask myself, will I have my life in order soon? Am I going to make it far in life, how I want? I’ve been told that God is my only guider in life. I understand that well, but it’s okay to have a push from others who have been through similar situations as myself. You know, inspiration. That’s what I look for, inspiration! This is all I’m going to write for now, if there are any questions or opinions you guy’s want to share, feel free to comment or e-mail me:

Thank you for your time loves! xoxo